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Breathe, Change, Growth, Inner work, Integration, Mantra, Meditation, Om namah sivaya, Opening, Presence, Quickening, Yoga
There is a quickening…
Despite myself I’m being reprogrammed at operating system level. Certainly I’m not practicing as much as I’d like, either yoga or meditation. But integration, yes. Before, it would take so much longer for me to realise I’d lost presence… Now presence is lobbed back to me, like a tennis ball. Oh there it is again. Spontaneous yoga within body and mind even if its not external. Om namah sivaya, om namah sivaya, om namah sivaya. A dog barks – you are Siva too, I explain. In between times I’m reactive, I’m angry, I’m anxious. I worry. But then… oh its you again. A pretty shrub covered in Spring blooms – I see the spaces in between. I fret. I stress. I react. But now I’m a homing pigeon set to return to Source. Inner voices are strengthened but still I question. New parts, there are new parts! Breathe. Mantra. Breathe. Mantra. Breathe. Mantra. Breathe. Mantra. Breathe mantra. Breathe mantra. Breathe mantra. Breathemantrabreathemantrabreathemantrabreathemantrabreathemantra…
There is an opening…
~Svasti
Svasti: A Journey From Assault To Wholeness 
I love this, Svasti. So connecting to know that someone else needs a operating system overhaul at times!
Thanks for offering the reminder to see the spaces and stay in them…
@Lucy – thing is, I’m not sure I have a say in this current overhaul!! Its a little disconcerting but not scary thankfully. 🙂
Ha ha ha! I have also undergone a major overhaul in my operating system, although from time to time, I need a reboot 🙂
I try to do mediate every day–I find that it really helps me stay balanced and focused. In fact, when I feel myself getting stressed, I try very hard to take even fifteen minutes to try to slow down, which meditation allows me to do. Since I started meditating, I have far more energy than I used to have and I also have less stress in my life–I really believe there is a cumulative effect from meditation–the longer you do it, the more benefit you can gain from it.
Thanks for this great post, Namaste–I enjoyed it very much.
Melinda
@Melinda – glad you liked it! This was just a funny little piece of writing that unfolded as I walked. I wish, wish, wish I had more time for meditation at the moment. Can’t wait til I move – then I’ll get a good 2-3 hours back in my day. It’ll be interesting to see what happens then!
But yes, meditation does have cumulative benefits, beyond anything its possible to imagine with our puny brains!!
Namaste 🙂