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blog award, Blog Catalog, First Dog on the Moon, Fuck you Penguin, Happy New Year, Sandhi, Sanskrit, The Girl Who Wears My Shoes, Trauma
Sandhi is a Sanskrit word, meaning something like ‘space between points‘. Sort of like that point on the horizon that’s not really anywhere… The changing of the year is basically one of those… and this one was very different to the past few years.
Which is, in itself is a very good start. So… Happy New Year people!
Sure, I spent a good bit of time alone. But I was recovering from a horrendous mucousy flu/cold almost all week just before and after Christmas. No fun!
I also got out and saw the world a little. And some friends, too (admittedly one of those friends I got to see coz he came over to jump-start my hire car – I managed to leave the headlights on overnight – doh! – and he rescued me!). Then I went to see my very ancient old grandma, who at 93 is nuttier than a bag of chestnuts and now living in a nursing home.
I had to work between Christmas and New Year, coz being new in my job and all… I don’t actually have any holidays to use up right now!
Then, I spent New Year’s Day talking for hours to someone who’s become a very good friend via this whole blogging malarkey… so there we were, getting to know each other a little better and talking with voices instead of IM (wow, old fashioned, I know!). It was awesome! If we coulda talked all day, we would’ve I suspect! Instead, I… well, actually you don’t need to know what I did with the rest of the day…
So there. I’ve been social, I’ve been spreading my wings and I’ve even possibly discovered some studies I’d like to do this year. Now, I just gotta find the money to make it happen! More on that later…
Svasti, don’t forget the shout outs!
That’s right… I’m pretty sure I wrote something in the title here, about a shout out or two??
Okay. So as well as the above, I’ve been exploring Blog Catalog a little more. To feed my blog reading addiction.
Which is how I found Tricia and her blog The Girl Who Wears My Shoes.
This is a woman who’s lived a lifetime of sorrow. And somehow she managed to get to this point in her life (I’m too polite to speculate on her age) in one piece. Sort of. Despite everything.
And I’m awe-struck, because I’m not sure I would’ve been able to hold all that in for decades. I think I would’ve ended up in a ditch, become a complete lunatic or just taken lots of drugs. Or something.
Anyways, not that suppression is good for you or anything of the sort. But, Tricia did what she needed to do to survive. She’s clearly very strong. But that strength hides such an inner fragility.
What’s astonishing is that Tricia is now taking steps, carefully of course, towards bringing her heartache and pain into the light. Which is hard at the best of times, but when you’ve pushed it down, down, down for such a long time… that’s a tough pattern to break.
It was shocking to her, to discover the intense and latent emotions that re-surfaced as she wrote. Which just goes to show – if ya don’t deal with trauma, it just dives deep, and lies in wait.
Oh, and Tricia is a beautiful writer.
She’s had a lot of internal struggles in writing some of the things she’s written. But I truly hope she keeps it up. For her own sake as well as for the sake of other women of her generation – if only my mum could do for herself what Tricia is doing!
I heartily suggest taking a peak at her blog.
Oh, and thanks muchly for the blog award… I’ve added it to my ‘Awards’ page. 😉
And, for completely irreverent giggles…
I also feel compelled to point out another couple of blogs, also recent additions to my blog roll:
First Dog on the Moon – an Aussie cartoonist who pokes fun at many things, including Australian politicians, but then, just generally life. He’s ace!!
He recently unleashed an unwitting but brilliant marketing ploy via Twitter. Indirectly, that’s how I found him actually.
Fuck you, Penguin – ever had a lil’ distaste in your mouth about all the things really cute animals get away with, just coz they’re cute? Well, this blogger gives them all a little what-for in return! Funny. Silly. And lots of cute critters.
(Thanks to FDOTM actually, for this little find…)
~Svasti
Svasti, enjoyed reading about your year turning. Glad to hear the illness is abating. Thanks for sharing the other bloggers – I checked them out too and agree totally with your recommendations.
And about the talking for hours thing…what fun! Recently a friend called….bad bad day….so she visited my meditation class and then followed me home…and stayed for 12 hours! We talked non-stop!!! And were still going strong between yawns when she finally bid adieu. It felt good to get out of the daily *stuff* I’m always involved in and just *be* with another person.
Reminding me the power of connection and belonging to the human race=a blog called svasti
Happy New Year! I am glad you are feeling better- I look forward to reading more from your blog this 2009;)
Hello! I have finally been able to resurface in the blogsphere and wanted to make a shout out to you as well. 🙂
I’m so curious about your new friend that you spoke with on New Year’s. 🙂 I’m so terribly nosy…don’t mind me. 🙂
I’ve missed ya, dear!
Thank you so much for all the kind words. Funny how you have managed to go right to the heart of it all. (the fragility) There are people that I have known for years that have no clue. Thank you again. It amazes me that someone I met through blogging could have made such a difference in my life in such a short period of time. I will forever be in your debt. ~ tricia
Talking for hours to somebody you met thru blogging??!!
I’d be careful with that kinda thing…most bloggers are pretty weird…deranged loners who do strange shit like going on week-long one-man solitary yoga retreats to the beach in the dead of winter…but I’m sure your friend isn’t THAT weird….
@laughingyogini – your chat with your friend sounds wonderful! It really is very special to be able to talk with someone like that for a long period of time. Thank you for your lovely, sweet compliment!!
@Amy – I look forward to reading more from you also. Hope your New Year was most enjoyable!
@Chunks – welcome back! If you really wanna know, just read back a post or two (hint: and check the comments section). Its sorta there to be discovered if you’re that nosy!! 😉
@tricia – you’re kind of another version of me. I mean this in the nicest possible way – but if I hadn’t dealt with my stuff for as long as you did, then I’d be doing what you’re doing now. And be in just as much pain. Its a hard road you’re treading. I’m glad you’re sticking with it. xo
@Jay – yeah I know, who could possibly be THAT weird? I mean, in a recent post, I talked about my own solo yoga retreat… am I THAT weird?? But no – my friend, the one I had a joyous time talking to for ages and ages? He’s definitely not that weird. And he’s not even as weird as he thinks he is. In fact, he’s kinda special, very sweet and caring. And… some kinda genius or something… anyways, I really like him! 😉
“ever had a lil’ distaste in your mouth about all the things really cute animals get away with, just coz they’re cute?”
….This is very familiar as I work in that zoo of a profession called ‘theatre’
Q – How many theatricals does it take to change a lightbulb?
A – 100. – One to change the bulb and 99 to watch and say “I could’ve done that.”
I wish you well on your healing journey.
xhenry
@henry – I used to work in theatre mself. Hehe… and I wish you well, also. 🙂