Anxiety, BlissChick, Confusion, Depression, Family, Recovery, Relationships, Stress, Truth, Unemployed
I am tired. And stressed to the eyeballs. I still don’t have a job, and very soon I’m about to be very, very broke unless the universe interferes. I’m working hard in so many ways, and I’m being assailed and tested constantly right now, on the planes of mental health, spiritual life, family and friends and… kinda everything. My belief in myself. The core of who I think I am.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that despite all of that, I’ve just read a marvellous post by BlissChick: Can I Get a Witness: Overcoming Depression through Story.
Go and read it now!!
There’s some highly truthful truths within that post, stuff I’ve thought about timidly under the covers with the flashlight on, but never ever out in the open.
Christine (BlissChick) and her partner Marcy (Ordinary Enchantment) really have got somethin’ goin’ on. Together, they’re a force to be reckoned with (not to mention their wonderful and wise pets). I hope some day I get as lucky as these gals, in meeting that person, where we just fit into each other’s lives. And support each other with strength and love when we need it most.
I read BlissChick’s post and I bawled, big heavy wet and salty tears. I’m gonna have to re-read it before I can coherently process the things that’ve touched my heart and soul so deeply at 1.30am in the morning.
But I want to say a big thank you to BlissChick for her post, honestly, and from the bottom of my heart.
Oh, Svasti, this gave me goosebumps. THANK YOU for being so very validating.
This post was hard to write. I wasn’t sure of it. I wasn’t sure I wanted to so nakedly put myself out there.
But this past Lent, for me, seemed to be about just that — being even more honest than ever, being so honest that it becomes almost…dangerous. Does that make sense?
It just kept coming to me in different ways during Lent: reveal yourself. Totally.
And I think this is what it was about — revealing my difficulties so that others might see hope and light even in the darkest places.
And know that you are not alone, Svasti, I will light candles and pray and send energy your way that this is the bottom for you, you know? That it is the place from which you will emerge, rise up, break out like the seeds coming to life in our gardens.
@BlissChick – I can imagine just how hard your post was to not only write, but to be certain enough of that you could hit the ‘publish’ button.
I know just what you mean about ‘dangerous’ levels of honesty. The sort of honesty that leaves nothing behind, not tiny part of your story still whispering from the sidelines. Sometimes I’m able to get there, but not without a great deal of struggle. Actually, I should say there, not without a great deal of surrender. Surrender is what happens when we stop struggling.
Thank you again for your post and for your well wishes. I too, hope that somewhere around here is the way out and up to the light.
I’m sorry you are in such a struggle. I hope it ends soon. I will read the post you noted– thanks.
@tricia – Thankyou. I hope you like the post, I have a feeling you will!
Just went over to Blisschicks… and had to come back and say thank YOU for guiding people to one of the most helpful bits of writing on depression I’ve seen for some time.
Thank you Svasti…I’m on my way over now…and thank you so much for stopping by while I was away. It was nice to see you there when I returned! :o)
@Bird – It really is incredibly helpful, isn’t it? I’m glad you were able to get something from her post, too.
@earthtoholly – My pleasure, I always enjoy reading your posts, and checking out your pics of Lucy and nature. 🙂