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Anxiety, Dialouge, Did the cat write this?, Foot in mouth disease, Haha, Humour, Laughing at myself, Make of this what you will, Oh just get on with it, Random conversations, Shut up, Silence, Silliness, Talking to myself, Which voice do I listen to?
What a mess we’ve made! Now, I don’t know quite what to say.
Say anything! Say something!
But what if it’s the wrong thing (again)?
You’ve gotta try… and you’re a smart girl…
Easy for you to say! What if my attempt is unwanted?
The way things are going, you’ll never find out!
But… I don’t want to seem needy (yet again)!
It’s not all about you, you know…
That’s true, I know that, and I want to ask, but…
But what?
What I said before, what if the question, any question from me is unwanted?
After all this time, you think it’s that simple?
I don’t know! I hope not! But I’m a little scared to ask in case…
Okay, but perhaps that’s how it is for…
Yeah, yeah, maybe but there’s no clues either way! I don’t know what’s happened, if that’s it, or…
Have a little faith!
But I don’t know! I don’t want to push my luck, or look desperate or manipulative?
Hey, posting this to your blog could be seen as any one of those things, too.
True… but I don’t mean it that way. I can’t read minds you know! And I’m scared…
No, and most other people can’t either, but I get why you’re scared…
What do I do? I just don’t know…
So wait, give it more time.
I’m trying to do just that! But the silence is killing me. It’s deafening.
Yeah, it’s tough… but hey, why not just send out some love, see what happens? Everyone needs support and love, even if they can’t reach out in return…
You’re right! So… here’s some love, just for you. And you. And [looks straight down the camera] for YOU too.
You know the rest, I hope…
~Svasti
Svasti: A Journey From Assault To Wholeness 
And love right back at ya, Svasti.
Wow. That was quite a conversation you had there, but in the end, your conscience seemed to know what was best for ya.
I should try talking to myself…instead I go through these mental rants…all the things you’d like to say, but either can’t or don’t know how. Argh.
@earthtoholly – All we need *is* love, sometimes, isn’t it? Glad you enjoyed the little ranty piece of… whatever. Yes, talking to yourself is always a good idea. Might as well, eh?
Svasti,
This is exactly one of the techniques I use to problem solve in my journal. For some reason, the process of writing it down and getting it out of the brain box really helps me. It’s like I can rationalise with myself when it’s out there on the screen (or paper) rather than ebbing and flowing in my head.
It’s great … I hope you can ask, or at least feel good about not asking and letting the situation go – however you resolve it (which you now know, all of us will want to know what happened).
Some pretty clever stuff from your cat… (your category tags)
@Amanda – Ah, I see! I (or rather, the cat) just kinda blurted this out some time back. Didn’t know what else to do with it, then came across it again… and it kinda ended up here. I like its randomness, and you know… things have changed since then. Don’t know if the cat really wants anyone knowing what happened in the end though!
Okay, actually, she finally got used to her boy cat neighbour (he’s rather handsome actually). And even though he comes in and steals her food, she’s sort’ve at peace with that, even if she doesn’t get to eat it all. She doesn’t chase him away any more either! It might be costing me a little more to feed two cats, but he’s really quite a charming fellow… 😉
chatting to oneself is the thing that everyone does the maximum. but its retrospection is what actually counts. i feel and am quite sure that i am going through a similar phase these days, no idea what to do and what not to. all the time its like thinking and fighting with your own thoughts and self.
maybe your write up will help me work on this stuff and retrospection be easier for me…
taking time for yourself and considering the facts that matter to you a lot are worth consideration and alas things will definitely turn towards the sunrise…
@Rajat – Hey, if you can take something away from my mad little ramblings, all power to you! 😉
*hugs and love*
I don’t talk to myself anymore, we had a falling out.
~JIMMY
@RealJIMMY – Awww, you should make it up to yourself. Take some of that love for yourself, my friend!! 😀
This is a really working technique. Initially when I started practicing meditation and my mind would deny to shut up, I opened my eyes and let it speak loudly. I don’t know what got tired the mind or tongue, probably the mind, a untamed mind has a limitless capacity:-)
@Devpriya – Hey thanks for commenting. Yes, it is a useful technique to let all the drivel pour out so it stops infesting your mind! Yes, I think the mind gets tired of itself even, which is why we are eventually able to find a way through the babble. 🙂