Ha! I don’t usually just re-post stuff, but when scanning Post Secret, I saw this postcard and thought… yeah. I know exactly what this person means.
Sometimes no going back can be a good thing. Others… well, wouldn’t we all like a do over of some experiences in our lives? But then, because we can’t, can we ever learn to just live with things as they are?
One of the truest observations anyone ever made about me, was from a guy who couldn’t pick me out in a line up.
I was at one of those work team bonding events around nine or ten years ago. The powers-that-be hired a handwriting expert to entertain us. So, at various times throughout the night, we took turns submitting our handwriting samples for analysis.
He looked at my writing for maybe a minute, uttered a few things that were true enough, but then said to me…
Oh, it takes you AGES to get over things.
Beats me how he knew that from looking at my handwriting, but yeah.
Not that knowing such a thing or for that matter, facing the cold hard truth, makes getting over the ‘stuff’ in our lives any easier, does it?
No— it does not. I wonder what my handwriting would say about me? I’m probably better off not knowing.
The caption on the card gains power with every reading.
I kind of feel that way about going public with my story. Once I started publishing the first blog entries about my life’s experiencing–I definitely got the feeling, ‘there’s no turning back–I have definitely crossed that line.’
In retrospect, I also had that feeling when I first decided to work as an exotic dancer. In fact, I remember distinctly feeling that there was *no turning back* and at the time, I did feel some sadness–almost as though I had a prophecy of what was going to happen.
I have never really trusted those handwriting people. My own handwriting is horrible because of some injuries to the nerves in my right hand when I had a terrible abscess as a junkie. So, I think (in my case) any ‘signs’ they saw are invalid. But who knows?
@Melinda – I think there’s many lines we cross in our lives, thinking there’s no turning back. Perhaps we really can’t but then perhaps we can and don’t want to, or just think we can’t.
Certain experiences do mark a change that delineates one part of our life from the next.
I can’t say one way or the other about handwriting people in general. I wonder how they would go with reading someone like you from handwriting that’s clearly not what it was? Might be interesting to find out 😉
I sometimes wish I could have a do-over of certain things, but then realize that if some of my past choices were different, I wouldn’t have some cherished things I now have… Partly rationalizing, I guess…
@earthtoholly – It is sometimes just rationalising, but the truth is we can’t have it any other way. Things are what they are, based on thousands of decisions we make every day. Sometimes its a good thing, to have crossed that line in the sand. Sometimes, its not…