Anxiety, Bad Old Days, branches, Change, clarity, cloud of doom, Confusion, Courage, dread, Expunged, Fear, gunk, Kinesiology, Nourishment, Panic, peace, Purged, remnants, roots, routed, self-honesty, source, That Which Has Been, Universe, wading boots
This entire universe and everything it contains comes from the same place. This I believe unreservedly.
Our roots are common, but it’s difficult to keep that in mind when you think of yourself as one of the branches somewhere at the top of the tree, far removed from the root system even as it ultimately provides the nourishment we need to exist.
We forget, and find it hard to identify with the whole tree, let alone the source of life that animates us. And we think that if we lose all or part of a branch or twig that we associate with ourselves, it’s a catastrophe. That life as we know it is over…
We get stressed, freaked out and whatever other reactions seem appropriate at the time. But this is just change. And our response to change is only as severe as our association with those things that are a-changing. To feel better, we have to learn to let go.
This concept can be applied to our lives at all kinds of macro and micro levels. Easier said than done sometimes, however!
And I’m reminding myself of this quite purposefully today as I prepare for this evening’s appointment with Kerry from Awaken Kinesiology.
I made the booking last month when I realised I was having some sort of intense energetic response to my five year anniversary. Because I want the remnants of all that gunk routed. Purged. Expunged. So bring it on!!
However, my body has other ideas and is bestowing a rather visceral response in anticipation of this appointment: fear in my belly, anxiety in my heart, confusion and panic in my mind (making things all cloudy and fluffy).
Seems crazy, this little cloud of doom I’m sporting on this gloriously blue-skied and sunny Spring day. The sunshine is matter of fact and reminds me that everything is going to be just fine. Yet, this morning I had to drag my sorry ass out of bed, like the Bad Old Days.
I know it’s all good and I WANT this for myself. Clearly though, there’s more than a few bits and pieces quietly haunting my insides. I function pretty normally now (whatever that means!) compared to how things have been. And maybe for some people that’d be enough. But it’s not enough for me, not by half.
So I’m pulling on my wading boots to trek through the muck. Time for another clean up, you see.
And it has to be done, despite the physical experience of dread that accompanies such ventures. This post is by way of gathering a little courage and exposing what’s going on in my body and mind for what it is: fear of change, even if that change is for the good.
I’m not just the branches, I’m the roots too. Especially the roots!
So here’s to more clarity, self-honesty, peace and freedom from the corset-like confines of That Which Has Been.
And here’s to a little more peace for y’all on this lovely day, too.
love the branches and roots imagery….
of course the longer one teaches the more the languaging changes and I’ve noticed myself saying (uh, channeling!) words using those images simultaneously….trying to get people to feel, I mean truly feel, how it feels to fly with their roots firmly embedded to the earth’s center…..;)
simple but not easy…..
@Linda-Sama – Yes I started thinking about roots and branches on a walk recently. And right at that moment, I took the photo at the top of the post.
I’ve still got a long way to go in terms of languaging in the yoga classes I teach, but from your comment I can see how sharing something like this could be helpful for others. Thank you! 🙂