Went to another kinesiology session today thanks to the kindness of my therapist, who told me I could fix her up later for it. For which I am incredibly grateful!
The main purpose for today was to balancing any obstacles I might have that could be causing this ongoing pattern of having work/having no work.
It’s simultaneously surprising and not so surprising, but what came up was stuff around my last permanent job. Which is where I worked at the time I was assaulted.
But it’s also the place where I told two female bosses what’ d happened to me and instead of compassion and understanding, I was bullied. At a time when I was very low, they kicked me in the shins. I was put on performance management for not doing my job properly (you try being functional when you’ve got PTSD!) and through various pretty horrible actions, those two women added to my stress considerably.
Of course, all of this stuff seems to link into my current health issues with my thyroid. Doh!
The above affirmation is one we used today that especially struck a chord with me. What immediately popped up in my mind was:
If I consciously honored and respected myself every day, what would that look like? How would things be different?
Personally I think things could be VERY different. I mean most of the time I’m in a good place these days, but I still have my bad times. Especially right now when I’m unemployed and not sure where my next job will be coming from!
But being in a good place is not the same thing as taking time out to provide some self-TLC, is it?
While I’m not ready just yet to write about how all of this looks for me, I invite you to think about these questions for yourself.
Is there a 5-10 minute daily ritual you could do? Would be it making sure you get enough exercise? Enough sleep? Making sure you like the way you’re dressed? Eating the right foods? Doing a mini-yoga session? Having a nanna nap?
Imagine how you’d feel if this became an every day habit. I’m pretty sure it’d make each day just a little bit brighter and more centered!
If you feel like it, tell me your ideas for honoring and respecting yourself in the comments.
~ Svasti xxx