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Anxiety, Dialouge, Did the cat write this?, Foot in mouth disease, Haha, Humour, Laughing at myself, Make of this what you will, Oh just get on with it, Random conversations, Shut up, Silence, Silliness, Talking to myself, Which voice do I listen to?
What a mess we’ve made! Now, I don’t know quite what to say.
Say anything! Say something!
But what if it’s the wrong thing (again)?
You’ve gotta try… and you’re a smart girl…
Easy for you to say! What if my attempt is unwanted?
The way things are going, you’ll never find out!
But… I don’t want to seem needy (yet again)!
It’s not all about you, you know…
That’s true, I know that, and I want to ask, but…
But what?
What I said before, what if the question, any question from me is unwanted?
After all this time, you think it’s that simple?
I don’t know! I hope not! But I’m a little scared to ask in case…
Okay, but perhaps that’s how it is for…
Yeah, yeah, maybe but there’s no clues either way! I don’t know what’s happened, if that’s it, or…
Have a little faith!
But I don’t know! I don’t want to push my luck, or look desperate or manipulative?
Hey, posting this to your blog could be seen as any one of those things, too.
True… but I don’t mean it that way. I can’t read minds you know! And I’m scared…
No, and most other people can’t either, but I get why you’re scared…
What do I do? I just don’t know…
So wait, give it more time.
I’m trying to do just that! But the silence is killing me. It’s deafening.
Yeah, it’s tough… but hey, why not just send out some love, see what happens? Everyone needs support and love, even if they can’t reach out in return…
You’re right! So… here’s some love, just for you. And you. And [looks straight down the camera] for YOU too.
You know the rest, I hope…
~Svasti
Svasti: A Journey From Assault To Wholeness 