Talkin’ to myself

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Anxiety, Dialouge, Did the cat write this?, Foot in mouth disease, Haha, Humour, Laughing at myself, Make of this what you will, Oh just get on with it, Random conversations, Shut up, Silence, Silliness, Talking to myself, Which voice do I listen to?

What a mess we’ve made! Now, I don’t know quite what to say.

Say anything! Say something!

But what if it’s the wrong thing (again)?

You’ve gotta try… and you’re a smart girl…

Easy for you to say! What if my attempt is unwanted?

The way things are going, you’ll never find out!

But… I don’t want to seem needy (yet again)!

It’s not all about you, you know…

That’s true, I know that, and I want to ask, but…

But what?

What I said before, what if the question, any question from me is unwanted?

After all this time, you think it’s that simple?

I don’t know! I hope not! But I’m a little scared to ask in case…

Okay, but perhaps that’s how it is for…

Yeah, yeah, maybe but there’s no clues either way! I don’t know what’s happened, if that’s it, or…

Have a little faith!

But I don’t know! I don’t want to push my luck, or look desperate or manipulative?

Hey, posting this to your blog could be seen as any one of those things, too.

True… but I don’t mean it that way. I can’t read minds you know! And I’m scared…

No, and most other people can’t either, but I get why you’re scared…

What do I do? I just don’t know…

So wait, give it more time.

I’m trying to do just that! But the silence is killing me. It’s deafening.

Yeah, it’s tough… but hey, why not just send out some love, see what happens? Everyone needs support and love, even if they can’t reach out in return…

You’re right! So… here’s some love, just for you. And you. And [looks straight down the camera] for YOU too.

You know the rest, I hope…

~Svasti

Infectious & contagious?

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Dyslexia, Enthusiasm, Infectious, Silliness

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I’m a little silly. Okay, sometimes I’m silly a lot.

But I swear, this little thought arose innocently from my rather mild but sometimes amusing dyslexia.

Alright, I don’t actually have a diagnosis of dyslexia, but I do tend to get words and numbers around the wrong way with incredible frequency!

So, the other day I was rambling on and meant to say: Your enthusiasm is infectious

But what came out instead, was: Your infection is enthusiasm

And I thought. Hmmm, how wonderful would it be, if we could be infected with positive things?

If, instead of infection being associated with unpleasantness, it was the other way around… just imagine! You could be infected with…

• Happiness
• Love
• Enjoyment
• Loyalty
• Self-esteem
• Confidence
• Friendship
• Comfort
• Wisdom
• Contentment

What else?

For those cynics amongst you, don’t worry, this blog aint about to turn into some shiny-bug-eyed-light-and-lovey epistle with animated gifs of doves and rainbows flying outta the page or anything… okay?

Just… a momentary thought passing, that was observed and toyed with briefly for my amusement.

And I thought I’d share.

Namaste, all.

P.S. Right about now, I’m soaking up the utter joy of hanging with some of my bestest friends. Getting lots of hugs, too. And in a couple of hours, I’ll be meeting up with the rest of my yogi crew for dinner before the beginning of our training (officially bright ‘n’ early Monday morning).

~Svasti